Life is all about finding answers to a plethora of questions, we daily confront when we are unaccompanied by other human beings, sitting lonely in our rooms, pondering over our fate, our destiny and more importantly our aim in life.

 “What in the hell are you doing in this world?”, somebody from within shouts angrily and vehemently.  Suddenly, the teachings of my religious guru flashes within my mind telling me that soul is a part of GOD and it remains delirious until it meets  HIM; realising the above I mollify my inside stating that I am here in this world to get rid of this ‘Life-Birth’ cycle. The disgruntled voice is audible again with a higher pitch “Don’t try to act so smart, and fool me and yourself”. I switch on my laptop and play music on high volume to ignore the voice but in vain. “Ok, forget about spiritual ends, what are your worldly aims?” I further increase the volume of the music and try hard to sleep.

The next day the question keeps reverberating in my mind. I mull over, trying to find an honest answer as if preparing myself for an interview, finally feeling victorious over a simple reply. I said to my inner conscience “I want to be happy and successful in life. I want to make this world a better place to live for the coming generations”. A loud laugh comes from within this time which irritates me as I was expecting a pat on the back for my response. The voice turns compassionate  and says “My dear! Don’t answer like an adolescent boy. Success and happiness stands differently to different persons. What is your definition of success and happiness? What makes you happy?”

With these thoughts in mind, I plunge into my past experiences trying to find answers but sleep hinders me in between. I wake up next morning feeling tired and sick.